As 2015 wraps-up, it marks a very successful year for me with my photography. This year I surpassed all my sales records for outdoor portraits… by miles. This spring, summer & fall were particularly profitable and paid for a few things, including my vacation to Vietnam.
I really wish I’d focused more on photography while in Vietnam, but I was honestly far too busy enjoying myself!! The textures, the weathered ethnic faces… it’s a photographer’s paradise! I’ll be back the same time next year and I’ll put more emphasis on the camera! (Oh how I envy those travel photographers!)
As I reflect on the past year, I can’t help but feel like something’s just not right. As much as I love working with all the wonderful people I get to meet while doing this, there are still a few rotten apples who almost ruin it entirely for me. It’s funny… I can have a thousand positive experiences, but the very moment I have one or two negative experiences… it just really seems to get me down and makes me want to walk away from it all.
Walking away is something I’ve contemplated in the past, but then I think…. what will I do if I’m not shooting?? Well, I think it’s safe to say that I’d be lying if I even tried to convince you all that I’m going to walk away from this…. photography is the only thing on planet Earth that I’m not terrible at!
What I am going to do, or wait… what I’ve recently already done…. is change my direction dramatically. I’m done being a high-school counselor and I’m done involving myself with the trolls, haters, shit-talkers, drama-queens, smear-campaigners and bottom feeders in this fucking cesspool of an alleged ‘industry’ in our sad, wanna-be-little-city.
I’m not sure what it is, and I’ve never experienced anything else, so I’ve got nothing to compare it with, but being a creative in Vancouver seems to be exceptionally challenging. I’ve had many confirmations of this from successful creatives who’ve all encouraged me to move elsewhere with my skill set. Hats off to those who’ve made a career of it; you’re far more intelligent, tougher and more resilient than I am!
2016 is my time to finally distinguish myself for what I’m truly capable of. I’ll be extremely discerning with my collaborations, regardless of whether or not they are commissioned projects…. I don’t care about the money right now. I’m just seeking personal direction and inspiration. I need to remove myself from this ‘playing field’ I’ve been playing in for so long. I can literally measure the detriment it’s had on my personal success and progress as an artist. It’s time to truly focus and begin to realize my full potential. It’s time to get back to my true passion!